Day 250

Sunday Rundown:

Weight: 187 lbs

Weight lost this week: -1 lb

Total weight lost: 51 lbs

Bust: 38" (1/2" lost since last week, 6 7/8" lost total)

Waist: 32 1/4" (1/4" lost since last week, 7 3/4" lost total)

Hips: 44 1/2" (1/2" lost since last week, 8 3/8" lost total)

Well ... one pound's not bad, all things considered. I had a rough week, guys. A ROUGH week. Started out stressful, with some changed deadlines on papers and such that made the first few days a real sprint, and capped out midway with an unexpected break-up, made all the harder by the fact that I felt (feel?) so strongly for the guy. However, his mind was made up and I've got no choice but to soldier on, as I always do.

Don't worry over me, though - I'm nothing if not resilient. I'm already bouncing back, which does scare me a little bit that it's coming so easily when I was falling so hard for the guy ... I'm concerned that maybe I'm becoming hardened to the idea of love and getting a little too jaded. That's neither here nor there, though. I'll face that down as it comes at me. All that matters now is that I'll get by as I always have: through sheer, indomitable stubbornness.

The one good thing I realized this week is that I don't react to depression the way I once did. I mean, I still slept about 16 out of every 24 hours for a day or two, but I didn't turn to comfort food like I used to. Apparently instead of eating my feelings, I'm now feeling my feelings, and while they still kind of hurt it's definitely better for me in the long run.

Anyway. This week was really hard in a lot of ways, but I got through it - even remembered my blog post, which is saying something. I'm already a long way towards being back to normal, and hopefully by this time next week I'll be able to tell you guys that everything's okay again. Cross your fingers for me, yeah?